Hello Nicky love a year gone bye baby so so sad had to keep fighting back the tears christmas day your birthday, we all miss you so much the pain is unbearable i am in a mad state of mind at present we toasted a drink to you but you know this. I still cant believe you are gone from us hope you are resting sweetly i will come back and talk again soon love you so so so much happy christmas where u are and happy birthday love you BROTHER NICKY LOVE YOUR SISITER KYMMY PRIMROSE BOBBIE SHAUNIE MERCEDES AND SAVANNAH ALL TALK OF YOU LOVE YOU BYEXX

Hello Nicky Love, well it is almost a year since you passed I was in Jamaica the day it happened, It has gone so fast but the pain of you gone deepens and saddens me. I feel bad for your life cut short. You never hadthe chance to meet a nice young lady and have children, nevermind I had 5 enough for us both ay (smile) I remember the red flowers I sent for your cremation, can still see the coffin coming out of the hurst. I looked t Aunty Vicky she has her faults but she loved you so much as we all did, she looked so old and frail standing and crying i REALLY THOUGHT SHE WAS GONNA GO WITH YOU WENT THE COFFIN WENT THROUGH THOSE CURTAINS EVERYONE GOT UP AND TOUCHED YOUR COFFIN I JUST FROZE I WANTED TO MOVE BIUT COULDNT AND LOOKED AT EVERYONE CRYING I RECALL THINKING THIS IS SO UNBEARABLE AND SO MUCH PAIN FOR THE FAMILY. I know alot of your friends from the hostel or should I say prison you were in and they had so many lovely words to say about you. You have so many friends that speaks volumes about the wonderful man that you are and I guess i never knew all those years you know our family is crazy and very separated so we not really to blame we always were close me and you nick. you alwasy said we were the black sheep of the family you are right. I love you brother and remember you always love to Grandad and all my dear friends lost along the way take care of Hugo and rolan and emarkpo and ken you will get on with them you are so friendly. LIFE FAILED YOU AND SO DID I AS YOUR SISTER. SORRY NICK AND LOVE YOU ALWAYS GODBLESS YOU AND US ALL PLEASE WATCH OVER US AND NAN AND MUM AND LISA SHE IS GUILTY SHE NEVER SAW YOUX

Hello nicky just stopping by to let you know I am still here thinking of you and missing you as always darling, I hope you are up there and reading my notes I write on here.I can not turn back the hands of time but I wish I had taken the time to know you more better the kids talk about their uncle nicky mercedes asked if she caould go and see you in the hospital I explained to her her that when we saw you last at the hospital in tooting you had already passed to jesus's home, but she still insisted we go there as she believed you will always be there, it breaks me inside over and over when I think that my family member has passed away, I am sorry you had such a low low poor quality of life nicky, I should of done so much more to help you brother. I had a very dear friend pass away a few days ago he dropped down at his place of work can you believe all the angels are coming up to jesus nick lol. Tke care of yourself nicky and my friend Hugo , your daddy and grandad harry who we love you all just the same. please keep an extra eye on robert he needs a little guidance from you nicky, protect mum and ralph pls also and the rest of the family, I wish I had some photos of you to put up here but only have the one love. I pray that you are at peace and suffer no more pain or drugs.I think of you very often sweetheart,a gap will always remain now you have gone away, an ache that never goes away the sorrow is too much to bear sometimes If I am honest, but I will remain strong for my children your neices and nephews. talk to you again soon love you nick, your sister kymmy and kidsxx