Hello Nicky Love, well it is almost a year since you passed I was in Jamaica the day it happened, It has gone so fast but the pain of you gone deepens and saddens me. I feel bad for your life cut short. You never hadthe chance to meet a nice young lady and have children, nevermind I had 5 enough for us both ay (smile) I remember the red flowers I sent for your cremation, can still see the coffin coming out of the hurst. I looked t Aunty Vicky she has her faults but she loved you so much as we all did, she looked so old and frail standing and crying i REALLY THOUGHT SHE WAS GONNA GO WITH YOU WENT THE COFFIN WENT THROUGH THOSE CURTAINS EVERYONE GOT UP AND TOUCHED YOUR COFFIN I JUST FROZE I WANTED TO MOVE BIUT COULDNT AND LOOKED AT EVERYONE CRYING I RECALL THINKING THIS IS SO UNBEARABLE AND SO MUCH PAIN FOR THE FAMILY. I know alot of your friends from the hostel or should I say prison you were in and they had so many lovely words to say about you. You have so many friends that speaks volumes about the wonderful man that you are and I guess i never knew all those years you know our family is crazy and very separated so we not really to blame we always were close me and you nick. you alwasy said we were the black sheep of the family you are right. I love you brother and remember you always love to Grandad and all my dear friends lost along the way take care of Hugo and rolan and emarkpo and ken you will get on with them you are so friendly. LIFE FAILED YOU AND SO DID I AS YOUR SISTER. SORRY NICK AND LOVE YOU ALWAYS GODBLESS YOU AND US ALL PLEASE WATCH OVER US AND NAN AND MUM AND LISA SHE IS GUILTY SHE NEVER SAW YOUX